First came the inventory years … taking everyone else’s,
While fearfully ensconced in those walls of ‘perfection;’
An undesired desired destiny of repetitive lesson sparked
The faintest Light of Dawn, and I finally focused on me.
I confronted childhood issues, releasing my anger and pain;
Adult lessons continued, happily they were different this time;
With each new challenge I came closer to the Truth,
And intuitively battled to free my path of detours.
There were no wrong directions … just longer paths;
Everything was a gift that led me towards Awareness;
I learned my emptiness wasn’t fillable externally,
It had to be filled with ME seemed simple, but how?
Then came the Light: I was ALREADY complete, for
It’s our Divine Nature that makes our ‘cup runneth over.’
Oneness was my quest when I stepped into this lifetime,
And my Opportunity to aspire? A childhood called ‘dysfunction.’
I thought I would be short and sweet today with my blogging. I love the above quote. This quote has pulled me though when I needed faith the most in dealing with my disability. I hope you enjoy and take from it what you will.
Peace and light,
Robin Lim has said: “Birthing is the most profound initiation to spirituality a woman can have.” Well nothing can be further from the truth. Let me explain. I was expecting my youngest child Danny, and I was suppose to have a planned C- section for reasons I will not go into at this time. Well as we all know nothing ever turns out the way it’s suppose to go. Danny scheduled to have been delivered on the eighth of March and two days before the C- section was to be performed I went into labor on the sixth of March. It all started when my husband came home with dinner in hand witch was a pizza. Well the minute Bill open up the front door the pun chit odor of that pizza slam me like a brick wall. The smell of that pizza sent my stomach in a full rage. I started to throw up none stop. I kept saying I do not know why my stomach is upset. My husband said to me Kathy you are in labor. I said, I do not have any contractions to speak of and again Bill said your in labor Call the doctor. I called the doctor and my doctor said to go into the hospital right away.
When in the hospital the doctor proceeded t examined me and said that indeed I was in early labor. Right there and then he said I want to do a emergency C- section. So with that said the nursing staff prepared me for surgery. My nausea begin to get worse. While the my doctor made the incision I started throwing up it seemed as though that when Bill was near me I could still smell his breath of pizza. And so I was throwing up the whole entire experience of my son Danny being born was interrupted my pangs of nausea It was definitely not my definition of my so called initiation of spirituality as one might think. It’s more like a bad hang over that will not go away. And to top it all off as the doctor was stitching me all up the radio in the operating room was playing “ Girls Just Want to have fun” How appropriate I said to the doctor and the nurses as my son Danny was being handed to me. This is a true story I kid you not
THIS IS WHAT LOVE IS AND SHOULD BE.
“I love that you get cold when it’s 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you’re looking at me like I’m nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it’s not because I’m lonely, and it’s not because it’s New Year’s Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.” – Harry Burns, When Harry Met Sally
True love at its finest
very nice picture and thoughts
Its purity never called into question
The shrinking river
continued to carve its path
a little slower…
And with the gentleness
of the sweetest flower
waiting like a tightly
for the day
when the floods
David L. Whitman 05/24/2012 from under a sky so blue….
by Christian D. Larson
Promise Yourself –
To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness and prosperity
to every person you meet.
To make all your friends feel that there is
something in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything
and make your optimism come true.
To think only of the best, to work only for the best
and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others
as you are about your own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and
press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and
give every living creature you meet a smile.
To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that
you have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear,
and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.